Disappearing



Fading to the back, stepping aside, giving up power, not understanding why. Devastatingly sad!

Fighting to hold on. Resentful and angry. Hours of normalcy, a day of perfection…slipping again into less than.

I can’t breathe, watching my husband, my partner, my person change.
Terror fills my heart, the horror, the fear, the pain.
I can’t breathe!

He steps into the doorway, this beautiful man of mine. He is standing upright, not crooked, his eyes are wide open, the pain is gone, there’s no fatigue, depression has vanished.

Will it remain mine?
The peace, the partnership, the joy, the calm, the love.
The future, our future.